Cup half full or half empty??

20 Aug

I was driving home tonight from my weekly mountain bike ride and of course doing some deep thinking. My first thought was “When is my life going to get good?” The thoughts just multiplied from there. I was remembering some times when my life was really good and during those times I remember thinking “Man I can’t get any happier, things are just really good for me right now.” But if I look back on those particular times they really weren’t that good and all that eventually ended badly. So if I compare it to now when I am thinking “Man nothing seems to be in place, I feel like I am just going through the motions of life, I’m not really happy.” I wonder if I am going to look back on these times and think that these times were the best times of my life.

I understand that whole thing of being grateful for what I have and focusing on the good things that are in my life. I even look at everything I get to do and see, and think how dare I even be disappointed with my life? But who can ignore the reality? After round and round of thoughts I was left with the question “What is it about life that I am not getting?” “Did I miss the rabbit hole somewhere along the way?” “Did I zig when I should have zagged?” Or should I stop questioning and just know that this is where I am supposed to be and later when I look back I will know exactly why I had questions.

I am looking forward to looking back.

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